I honestly didn't know where else to put this.. but this is what a livejournal is for..

and I'm sorry I said my last journal would be my last.. I guess it's a lie.. T_T

but anyway this is kinda important.. I actually hurt myself pretty badly.. like.. not have to go to the hospital bad.. but I can't do ANYTHING badly.. I busted my knee.. (so now I can't really walk on it.. or carry anything heavy) and I busted my elbow (Drawing arm.. so I can't move my arm and it HURTS to type or draw! )

So.. man.. I was REALLY looking forward to doodling again today with now being able to be inspired again.. but I guess I JUST can't.. Dx and that really depresses me..

Oh well... I guess I'll tell you later if I feel better... or not.. Sorry again.. )=

Hey, sorry for the lack of updates on my blog.. and really anywhere else.. I've been sick, and busy..

Plus like my title says I'm moving.. so I might actually be off the internet by the last week of March..

but so show I'm still hanging in there.. here is a picture I've been working on for a couple of days..



I'm NOT putting it in my DA.. but I will put it in my sheezy.. I honestly like Sheezy for that.. because it's a wip and no one should fav crap like this..

It's Ichigo (Strawberry.. lol) from Bleach.. I honestly am getting addictive to it.. Dx and Ichigo is my fav character.. Oh NO! xD;

Well.. laters.. maybe a long later.. bye bye for now.. =)

Happy V-day kinda.. I'm sick.. so not going to post much..

Sleep begins now.. and then I'll be off the internet for like a week because I'm bored of it..

plus I have work.. so laters..

<3

I feel bad.. yep.. I really do.. I'm kinda sad... and it's mostly BECAUSE of the internet... Don't ask why... because it's many things and not a lot of things..

It's just so confusing..

I don't feel a lot of love over the internet.... there I said it..

and it's because of the lack of love.. I really don't like it..

I have only been gone a week from it.. and already I feel like I'm a stranger looking in.

If I completely disappeared from the internet.. no one would really care... and I've noticed that on DA... a LOT..

It's annoying me to no ends.. and I believe it's because I switched accounts.. because of that.. I'm not interesting.. and I might come off a bit creepy to some people..

If I do.. I'm sorry.. >>

and it's not only that.. I haven't talked to any of my friends in awhile.. and it's really making me sad.. it's making me think they hate me.. or that I annoy them..

but how can I annoy them.. if I don't talk to them.. O_o (Which is confusing me)

Anyway... I'm not good with people.. and I'm more a loner.. which is why having friends confuse me..

Also.. finding out a lot of crap... I can't find Travis on the guest list for Ikki-con anymore (Which is WHY the majority of my friends are going to Ikki) and not only that.. my friend Michelle can't go because of grades.. and now Daddy might not go because of Grades..

(I'm glad I don't go to school anymore.. Gosh..)

I'm ALREADY nervous as hell to go to Ikki and sell my arts... without thinking I'm a total loser.. ~_~ I need my friends there to help ENCOURAGE me to continue on... because I'm to scared to do it by myself..

I mean.. with DA.. I feel like a REALLY huge loser there.. not worth anyones attention.. (because the majority wont give it to me..)

I only feel a little better when I'm at a con.. and people praise me face to face... but no matter how many people tell me I'm good.. I will always think I'm a horrible disgrace..

Well... that's enough of a sob story.. I'm going to go watch the SO-called game... and then play a video game.. then try to get some requests out of the way before Ikki-con.. Dx

Gosh.. this sucks..

It's been a while since I actually felt happy... I mean.. sure thing something ELSE will go wrong.. but for now.. I'm content.. and that's really great.

I'm getting excited about the up and coming con..

NOT looking forward to buy all those prints.. T_T

BUT I'm getting excited about being there and doing cosplays..

Edward will be fun.. I'm excited.. I've wanted to cosplay him since summer.. so that will be fun! <3

I also have a lot to do.. and that's honestly not fun.. trying to remember everything is kinda hurting my back.. because I don't know how to accomplish it.. Hmmm

I know that soon... and VERY soon I'm going to have to work on a picture for one of my friends contest.. I WANT MORE MANGA!!! Dx

But I'm having a tough time getting it the way I want.. or how it's going to come out.. Well, I'll think about it some more.

Laters~

What does Racism really mean to you? Seriously...

Okay... I'm white so.. technically I'm at fault with being a racist.. you WOULD think..

Okay.. let's get this thing straight.. I AM NOT RACIST AT ALL!!!! If you wanna blame people who are racist think of this one person that REALLY ticked me off..

David and I went out to eat at this local dinner that serves breakfast, and this neighborhood is mostly a black community.. which is okay.. if they don't bother us. (These people are REALLY trashy though and have NO respect for themselves.. mostly gangsters and hookers) and we had a black waitress take one look at us and gave us to this white waitress..

and I watched as she served EVERYONE else but David and me... talk about being a racist man.. I mean.. I'm SORRY I'm white and all... but DAMN! You need to get past your issues and do your freakin job.. ><

If I could magically change colors so you would like me.. I would.. but I can't! Everyone is the freakin SAME! No matter WHAT you look like.. So SORRY!!!

But that was last night.. I didn't wanna think about it.. I actually just got up an hour ago.. so nothing really happened yet..

I'm getting some food and then I'm going to be possibly play a video game.. ^^ Laters!

and btw,, what does tag mean on your journals? It just says tag.. and I looked it up.. but it was very specific about it. Hmm.. Laters! xD

This is my first journal in my new account... I had an old account.. but.. I forgot the name and password.. so yea.. This will be it for now..

More to come hopefully..